I am special in God's eyes

My life is a waste 

feels like a garbage thrown in a trash can

They don't know what it feels to be hated

To be discriminated by people

They even take away my life

They hurt me without conscience 

They made fun of me

They treat me like an animal

They even think of me as a bad luck

They cursed me to be killed

They tried to kill me without hesitations

They said I shouldn't existed in this world

One day I decided to kill my own self

So that they won't have me as the bad luck and a trash

Then I heard God summon me

God said you are not a bad luck and a trash you are special for me.

Message:

God has better plans for us so don't ever think to finish your life

 whenever you think you are a trash or a bad luck

God is there that you can count on to He is ready to listen to your words 

even you can't see Him He is there watching you, it will make you feel better when

you talked to Him specially when praying feels so light deep inside.

Hurt so much

My heart crashed when you left

My heart crippled and fell down seeing you like that

My heart breaks into pieces when you say those words

My heart bleeds because I hurt you.

So much sadness I felt doing this things to hurt you

So much pain I felt when I saw your tears falling

It's so hard not to show you how much I love you

It kills me because I know that I can't be with you.

Though your beside me I feel your too far

It feels so painful that I'm just like this because I'm not enough for you

It feels like my heart is having holes because of so much pain

I wanted to be drown in a deep water just to forget this pain.

It's so hard to think that we can't be together

If that's the case I should just killed my self

If I couldn't love you I'll just be the little mermaid

like that mermaid turned into bubbles and disappeared.

Lies

You promised to be with me forever

You even said you will be there no matter what happens 

You said you'll do better than before

You said you will love me even if it's already the end of the world

But those are all lies I found out that you were always doing that to all your girls

I was also poisoned by your poisonous words like them

All of you were just the same like the guys I've met before

You didn't even cared for what I feel 

I even cried in front of you 

You just stayed so calm in front of me 

You just looked at me like nothing happens

Then you came back and asked for a second chance

And because I loved you I still gave you that second chance you asked

But then you made promises again and fooled me

I cried so many nights and I think I should end this

And forget you though I still love you.

You were just a dream and an Imagination

At first you were just a picture from my dreams 

You were just a drawing from my mind

You were just an imagination from what I imagined

Then you came in front of me saying I'm yours

I thought I was just imagining at the time again

You said your here for me because I asked for you

You said you will take good care of me

I even questioned my self and gone crazy

That was a unbelievable thing because you were just my imagination

But then your here again begging for me

I was still in shock because I still believe that your my imagination

Whenever your there I really thought I was still sleeping

But then as the time passes by I felt falling for you

Though I know I already fall for you through my dreams

I couldn't stopped this heart to fall for you

And now I know that you are real.

Unbreak

You said you won't leave me

You said you will be here for me

You said you will take care of me

And now I saw you with another woman

My heart turns into pieces 

From on that day I closed my ears for your words

You made me believe on those lies you made

Suddenly tears falls from my eyes

 I gave my everything to you

But still it's not enough for you

I wanna forget everything you did but it's not really working

The only solution is to erase you in my life.

You are the Greatest Gift

You showed me the true meaning of Love

You Loved me as I am

You did everything for me

You saved me from falling apart

You change the things that can go me through wrong

You helped me through hard times

You were also there in my happiest moments

You tried to fit my world though I know it's hard for you

You understand me in my failures 

You were also there when I feel sad

You were always there to make me smile

You are the greatest gift I have in my Life

You gave me your Life without hesitations

You thought me things that I didn't know

You continued to love me without asking me to love you

You said I'm the greatest gift but You are the one who is the greatest 

gift of all.